Tell me all about it, dear...

Stephanie - 2010-05-12 20:52:29
I've stopped waiting for the good part to start, too. Why waste any more of whatever time I have left dreaming of things that will never happen, right?
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dichroic - 2010-05-12 21:30:39
*hugs* (Also, I don't see how you get from those four things to "I fucked up". On three out of four, you had no say in them whatsoever; you did your best with the hand you got dealt. On the fourth, I don't know. He loves you, treats you OK, and seems to at least try to do better when he understands there's been a problem. He should be better able to understand, but we all *should* be better than we are. Only you know if you love him, or if you love him enough, but if you do, then you didn't fuck up there either.)
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terri t - 2010-05-12 22:36:31
I know you don't want any pollyanna comments about looking for the rainbows and the pie in the sky. I guess I can only say that you can be happy for what you do have now vs what you didn't have before....and I know you are..... It's like Peggy Lee's song...IS THAT ALL THERE IS???????
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Deb - 2010-05-12 23:34:59
Lately I have been contemplating the concept of things being OK. When things are OK one doesn't feel like they should complain, after all things could be worse. However, when things are OK the flip side is that they aren't great or wonderful or perfect. I struggle with this because gosh I've had a really OK life so far and nothing is ever quite satifying about that.
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Poolie - 2010-05-13 00:24:55
Every choice we ever make leads us to where we end up. Interesting. I have tried to figure out where my life went off the track too. Makes me sad sometimes. And other times, I am thrilled because there is still so much to explore. I know this is a weird comment. Sorry.
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poundheadhere - 2010-05-15 17:30:54
Having gone through Hell on earth, all I can say is that I am supremely jealous of your "OK." Excitement and bliss are terrific ideals that frankly don't exist on planet earth, certainly not in any long-term capacity. If you have someone in your life you can respect and depend on, you won the relationship lottery. If you haven't murdered your teenager, you've got one more brownie point. It's hard and it's frustrating. I'm not downplaying that. Someone once suggested to me that you ask yourself, "what would I do today if I actually loved (insert your spouse's name.) Acting the part in some cases becomes self-fulfilling, believe it or not. I've done it.
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