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Ally - 2005-06-20 04:42:54
First of all, WOW! Twice I've been first on the comments, I'm some kind of cool. Secondly, what a GREAT entry. Your "former" self sounds soooooo much like where I am right now in my life and marriage. And who you are now is where I'd like to be. I'm on the path of change, but crap it's hard!! Thank you for writing and sharing so much of yourself and your thoughts. Whether you know it or not, they're helpful, and I truly appreciate it! Besides, I find you hysterically funny, and that my friend is a true bonus!!
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Amy - 2005-06-20 06:06:27
I can absolutely relate to this. When you grow up in a really bad home situation, you really have NO IDEA what normal looks like--what you have a right to demand or request for yourself, what is reasonable or unreasonable for others to ask of you, what you have to suck up to be a good person and what you ought to walk away from. I think this is one reason I'm such a natural voyeur, and why I like reading online diaries so much. I keep thinking if I could just SEE how other people live, what a normal life looks like, maybe some lightbulb will click on in my head and I'll finally be able to do it without agonizing over it too. Of course, it's also not a bad thing to discover that there are other people out there who are struggling for that balance as well. Great entry, lady.
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dichroic - 2005-06-20 11:37:39
Makes total sense. When you're doing anything new to you, you have to really think about things that become routine habit after you develop more experience. I'm going through enough of that right now with the instrument flying that I can imagine how tiring it would be to have to do it *all the time* because the thing you're learning is daily life. Maybe some of your occasional discouragement is pure exhaustion?
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bettyalready - 2005-06-20 13:23:10
I'd be a bitch. Meaning that's what I end up doing. I try to be a big girl. Doesn't always work.
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