Tell me all about it, dear...

EX - 2005-05-24 03:49:04
I have insomnia too. *Hugs*
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Denver doug - 2005-05-24 08:26:27
You are so, smart, witty, loving and a great lady. Wish you could have been our child. Hugs
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Lana - 2005-05-24 08:38:07
No one has the "Perfect" parent... I have this weird love/hate thing with my family, especially my dad, He is more than controlling and has a tendency to pick out all of my flaws, which in turn always makes me feel like crap. My mom well she is distant because of my dad's controlling behavior we have not had many mother-daughter bonding moments, I too have longed for that fun, loving relationship. I figure I will somehow someday make up for it with my kids, give them what I never had in the parental scope, at least not make the same mistakes my parents have made... I also feel guilty for feeling that way knowing that in their reality they did the best they could.
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Cat - 2005-05-24 09:22:22
This entry really struck a chord. My father was identical to your mom. I've never existed to him; I remain a mere extension of himself that alternately annoys or embarrasses. I used to jump through hoops hoping to make him proud or happy. Now I'm wondering if I'm doing the same damn thing in the relationships I have in my life now. Off to ponder...
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Petrouchka - 2005-05-24 10:20:16
You were an orphan, LA. You had a sperm and egg donor, but it sure as hell sounds like you never had any parents. Give yourself props for turning out as well as you have, because it WAS all you.
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bathtubmary - 2005-05-24 10:29:10
your children will know what it's like to have a great childhood. you are amazing. xoxo, d
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dichroic - 2005-05-24 13:24:35
You do know what it's like to have a great childhood, as much as anyone can know seeing it from the outside. You see it in Wolf and Alex. (Your mother, of course, would say you were doing all to show up what a bad mother she was. And you probably were, partly. But even that doesn't matter; it's more important that you were doing it for your kids because you love them, and most important of all that they got the benefit of a loving mom, no matter what the cuase.)
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dharmabum - 2005-05-24 13:50:23
i bet *you* are a much wiser, kinder parent for all your experiences. i'm so sorry that had to happen to you, but i can tell how lucky your own kids are to have you as a mom.
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Pandi - 2005-05-24 14:37:25
You may not have had a wonderful childhood, but you turned out to be a wonderful grown-up. Hugs!
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